7th Year Anniversary

Yesterday was my 7th year anniversary with this company.
I don't know if I want to say somemore to that. Coz Sheryl Crow said it right : "A change would do you good"

*Cough* *Cough*

I think everyone who knows I have a blog knows I love to blog. But my last blog entry was 6th July and today, it's 16th July. It's been 10 days. 10 days of silence. 10 days of absense.

So many things has happened. It means that when I am at my the point where I have no voice to express my feelings, I am blogging. I am putting it down in words.


I have been down with a bad throat since Friday and Saturday and Sunday I was flat out. Saturday not so much flat, I still had time to get my nails done. Coz it was only my throat that was bugging me. On Sunday afternoon, I was running a temperature. On Sunday evening, I was desperately trying to sleep it off.

On Monday morning, I find myself at my desk looking at all the impossible.
I should have stayed in bed and cured myself of this bone aches and temperature and sounding like a Tina Turner drag gone bad. Before I feel I am strong enough to face all these paper chaos on my table.


It first starts with me. But today is Monday. Do you know what that means?

Up and Down

I've have this pick up-let down feeling so many times today I know the Happy Pills were definitely a way better solution.

When was the last time I spoke about turning to my Happy Pills? Ah, yes. Probably the night I was on the line with ex-boss with signature frown, 2 nights ago. He asked if I have stopped that shit. It's quite easy for a boss to be able to read their staff, huh? Maybe he's just perfected his penetrated whithering frown and it works over the phone. Don't know.

But talking to ex-boss The Man, was definitely a trip back. He laughs it off like it was just ciggie ash that's just landed on his baju or something. He talks about life and love and everything in between. But mostly about knocking my stupid head for still some lingering habits.

So, no.. I have not been near those shit. But it was only 2 nights ago that we were talking about it. And now I am thinking about it and blogging it. Recency effect?


Boss, if I'm not any better, I'm certain Qert will be free to slap me whenever he is not just simply parking in the building.

Thank God there is a contant man in my life for the next 6 episodes, and the last 6 hours of Jack Bauer's day.

Coz there is no more of The Boys till Season 3 Part 2. And 24 has ended at Season 6 Part 2. Maybe I should pick up McDreamy and McSteamy all over again...

Or Carrie and Big.


Or start reading one of my exceeded-quota books. Ha ha.


It's definitely going to be a long chat with Him tonight. I have many things to reflect and repent... I wish I was a better person. (I don't need to be bigger, coz I already am - horizontally!)

Good News

It's very cute. I just received flowers sent to my office...

Thank you for picking me up and thank you for being thoughtful. You didn't have to. But I appreciate it.

If I have spoiled you by accompanying you to have pork for lunch, you are very much mistaken. It is comfort food to me and I am only doing it because I enjoy your company and I love pork myself.

And no, I didn't need another handbag, but that's besides the reason why I didn't buy it. It was pink and my name was written all over it. You could see it, and also on my face.


Thank you, beautiful soul.

Books Books Books!

So since I was out last night to watch Transformers, I stopped by Kino and bought 4 books. I'm in so serious trouble with these books. I've used up my quota. No more books for this year! :O



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That's just so me. And I look so Lenore.


Please send good news. Please send good news. I hate the Friday I'm in today.

Time to whip out brick Pod and tune in to some Frank. Ha ha. I have Jamie Cullum!


wait. no mush on Friday. esp not this Friday. Change.

hmm... Blade Soundtrack... *evil grin*

Impact

This is the emotional toilet flushing effect.

I heard from a colleague this morning about her last 2 days. And if the news brought tears to my eyes, I can only imagine what it has done to her for the last 2 days. She is such a strong person to still go on. Still coming to work, still putting up a front.

All 8 months plus that I have spent, not a day goes without me associating anything with then. And I can only imagine how long it will take for her to get past this. It was a 4 year investment.

She was telling me about female intuition. Which I think mine failed me very badly.

Of course there were signs, of course there were reasons, of course there were slap-me-in-the-face obvious hints. But if being honest and considerate is not part of a person's values, then I cannot blame myself for being blind to it.

Some people are verbal, some are visual, with my sense in music and everything else, it has to be audio. I can't read off an email and expect closure. I need stereo! I can't expect to see them together and think the worse, I don't know. I'm just not that way.


But hearing her tell me her story, my heart goes out to her. And all of a sudden it was my Friday being bad, and this Friday, I'm NOT In Love.

Maybe coz it's close to bleeding.. Maybe it's time to bring out the Happy Pills and just try to make it past today. Tomorrow will be a better day.

I still hate weekends. But at least tomorrow I will have Jerri Berry and on Sunday I will have Jack.

My New Obsession

Lovelight lyrics

Kimi Wins First

It was Kimi winning first and it was at Magny-Cours. It must have been a really good race.. coz I didn't manage to catch it. It's the first time this season that I have missed a race.

If I didn't even miss a race at my wedding ceremony, this must be a real heck of a wedding ceremony that I miss a race for it.

I'm glad that Kimi did finally win a race and Ferrari is back in the running on Constructor's Championship.

And break Hamilton's stride for a bit. ;)


My weekend with Jack has been so wonderful.. that I wish it was still the weekend.

Blog more about Jules and my adventure on Sat later. Be good.