Force!

I want to be a force for good.

I have been sitting around, bumming, lazing, depressing for almost 4 months. For months and months I have wasted away this once energetic person full of passion. It is time for mending. If I cannot mend myself, I have to channel this frustration and this anger to a better focus.

I have decided proudly today, to be a volunteer. I must start somewhere. And starting somewhere selfless it is.

I have shared this with 4 people today. Out of 4 people, one was .. weird. This person told me to set my priorities right.

My mantra has always been the same, "It is not about the money".

I want to make myself and volunteer my time. For a good ending to some people. Lots of compassion, lots of tears, yes, I know that. But it is doing something, keeping myself busy and staying focused... So why is my choices and my decision met with such resistance by this person?

Because this person said, I must first help myself before I can help others. Would it also not seen that by helping others I help myself better?