The rain stopped... I didn't...

"The rain stopped, somehow the pain remains as a constant reminder of guilt.I tried not to text, I failed again. With hopes that I'm not intruding unto your space, this text will find you. The day has been long, I have so much to do and so little strength. Here's my cheer for you hoping you'd have a better weekend than me. Salute"

"Baby.. Get some good rest.."

"Forgive me for replying. I'm not saying that I'm weak because I didn't get any rest, it's because I didn't get someone"

"Stop saying about forgiving you. It's not you didn't get someone, it's someone's love"

"Call it what you want. You're not the one in the bubble floating to nowhere"

Silence.

What I intend to achieve is Alanis' Doth I Protest Too Much.


I'm not threatened, by every pair of legs you watch go by
I don't cringe when you stare at women, it's just a thing called guy
I don't notice your side ways glances or where your loyalty lies
I'm secure and out of me, it's hard to get a rise

I'm not jealous
I don't get moved my much
I'm not enraged
Not insecure as such
Not going insane
Rational stays in touch
Doth I protest too much?


I'm not tortured by how oft your busy, Cause I've got things to do
I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss you me, cause I don't need you to

I'm not needy I don't get clingy much
I'm not scared I'm not afraid as such
I'm not dependent Rock solid, stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?

So much energy to prove to you
Who I can't possibly be
So much energy to prove to you
I'm not who you hate for me to be

I'm not saddened
And I don't miss you Cause I have moved on too
I'm not concerned about your new lover
Cause I have a new lover too

I'm not depressed
I don't get down that much
I'm not despondent
I am not dark as such
I'm never sad
Keep Chin Up, Stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?

I'm not jealous
I don't get moved my much
I'm not enraged
Not insecure as such
Not going insane
Rational stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?

"Your silence is the story of my life"

"Silence is not the story of your life. I am the story of your life"

"And the pain and torment I put myself through of this futile cause I am close to killing myself over"

He really knows how to drive me to my grave, throw all cautions into the winds and become like him. They say you must choose your companions well, what they are, you become. I could only wish that it was the other way round for him. To mirror some examples of the people around him. There are so many role models and yet this is ideally the most disintegrated one.