It's been too long...

It's been too long since my last posting. I know I've neglected this chore but if I tell you the whole and entire story, your heart will go out to me.

Today is Steve's birthday. I've been feeling a little let down with the fact that I couldn't go home to see dad and the getaway trip we planned, did not materialise.

Shangri-La Putrajaya, my favourite so-called out-of-town getaway... Now I'm looking at a bleek 10 consecutive days of working as my leave has been cancelled and I couldn't even get the day off on Steve's birthday. I won't see a day off until Saturday 4th June. I look forward to that Saturday.

Between now till then, it will be just me and Boss... So I know it's going to be a tough 10 days to handle. I wish I am stronger, even if it is just for Boss.

Steve went home to see dad anyway and for the last 3 nights I have been staying in the building where I work. Not by my own choice, but it was a good decision. I've never seen or expected the product I represent to give way the way it did. I guess everything is a learning thing for the past long weekend. If I were to write my weekend MOD report, it would have gone on for pages. Hilariouis and unbelievable.

It was also F1 weekend. Monaco, my favourite track. I couldn't catch it because I gave up Kimi and F1 for my other priority, my top priority. I feel like I'm betraying what I am, it honestly hurts but what can I do? I am where I am, by my own choice. I'm at the best platform from which to jump beyond myself.

I don't know what else to say in here that I haven't already. Too many things happened, too many things that I do not want to recount. I hate me for the choices I make.