Going away...

I've always known for the last month or so that JC was going to be flying away. Today I received confirmation of his departure via sms. The truth didn't hit me any harder than the fact that this consistent and persistent person is finally going away. This attention and this last bit of resort is all going away.

Shine who wants to be oily will be oily alone. Shine who was hungry will be hungry alone. Shine who wanted cheese has no one who will be cheesy to her.

Well, call it an extended "see you later". I know I will.

If I know JC the way I know JC, by hook or by crook he will make it to see me. No matter what, no matter how. If he wanted to see me, he will find his means and do that.

That has been how reliable JC's been in my life. Always consistently proving himself, when he knows it's not going to do either of us any good. And that's my heart going out to him, when he knows he's leaving and he still tries.

It has been a sure-thing that JC has managed to bring tears to my eys because of his actions, goes straight to here. (Shine points to her heart) Time after time...

I know this entry is going to be absolutely heart-wrenching for JC to read, but I just wanted you to know that it's how it's been for me too. It's not easy for me to say goodbye. So let's just leave it as that.

And don't feel like Rick standing on a station platform with a comical look on his face because his insides has been kicked out. Don't feel that way, because you didn't have that unused ticket meant for Ilsa.

Take care of yourself and be good. Text me once in a while and read my blog. I wish I could leave this place. I would stop having sleepless nights and nightmares of my Boss or work. There's been times I'm tempted to take the coward's way out but I know I'm a stronger and better person that that.

Be good.