Weekend

It's the weekend. And it feels a little weird. I have never been much looking forward to this weekend. Among many other things, but this, was one thing I couldn't change.

Unchartered territory, must be. But that's how this has always been. That's how.. "filling" this has been for me. Because if you remember correctly, that's how JC and I got talking and got to spending time watching Band of Brothers together.

Last night it was empty, and I am glad. Even the simplest new advertisement by Prudential had me crystalising. I am just glad I was in solitaire.

I did the usual. Chill the room, play my music, dim the lights, light some candles... spend time talking to my mom.. My dad was upset over one thing. I don't blame him. I used to be upset over things like that. I don't anymore. I guess it's growing up? Well, if you cannot forgive you just forget.

Since I have been thinking, and since it is only next week that my paper supply will arrive and one other thing, I put on my lightweight and listened to Aerosmith.

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - is the first thing I successfully disassociated with a bad memory and re-associate with a new one. And I always am very fond of the song since.

Working on disassociating and re-associating takes a lot of effort., That I don't know if I want to. Everything that made me me, everything that could make me a better person. Sigh.

I found the card. And I am glad my memory serves with me right. It is indeed the correct picture on the card, it is indeed the correct verse of the song on the back of the card. I have it with me right now in the office. In my two-tier drawer... Everything is on the top drawer.

And warm comfort of knowing... there is secret pocket and there is my second drawer.


Be strong, Shine... It's only the weekend.