As Good As It Gets

Kee has been planning this holiday since early Dec 2005. Today, we all received updates of her holiday of a week. She went to Macau and Hong Kong.

We've taken a step back for two years beginning April 2006. Of letting this.. career launch. And everything else takes a different platform. This was what we said we were gonna do. It's now August 2006. Only 4 months effort into working a career, and almost no effort in working the other fulltime job since March 2006.

People tell me that.. there's no such thing as "the right time". Nothing is ever considered a right time. Never is never a right time. Now is not a right time. As soon as, is not a right time. I guess.. there isn't a right time. But for 2006, it isn't the right time. But we did it anyway.

It was so much of getting into it blindly. It was so much heartache and frustrations, that I don't know why people do it.

For a narcissist, when is a right time a right time to compromise on individuality?

If this is as good as it gets, it needs to get better than trying to lighten the day by looking at someone else's holiday pictures.

Go outside. Breath the sky in. Take a walk. Find your little joy. Value this solitaire. Only you can give this to yourself.

If I text him now with a hint of grieve, I could predict the reply.

"Keep your chin up and keep smiling!"