Choked Tears...

I cannot believe that I was one to be oily over the fact that no one wants to eat with me. I, the same person who values loneliness and my own company, was oily over solitary. I gave up lunch because I found no one worthy.

I called, reaching out for my new best friend. And I said to her, I won't eat till I see you.

Then because the both of us are in operations, some things are not meant for us to decide. It is not entirely up to us. Nothing is ever up to us. We can plan, we can talk about it, but everything is up to Him.

My new best friend went out for her break without me because she is not able to accommodate my time and I am left with no one to eat with and no one to talk to.

It's one of those days, where I have 2 postings in a day. Again, it means one of two things. I'm bored or I'm sad/furious.

I choked back the tears that was fortcoming. I called Fuzz and he wondered why I am that way, since I am "so good".

Good question, I want to know why I am that way too.

I looked at my supply of Happy Pills and wonder if I should take a couple...