Craziest bits of rain

It's confirmed. The bits and pieces are falling into place. They who has been throwing ideas like I was throwing candy at John, they who has been throwing words like I was throwing the dice while playing Monopoly (with much glee and wishful thinking), they who has been throwing people and careers like I was with as much care as have I, these french-manicured nails I so religiously love, not scratch onto the side of the resisting staple I was trying to remove.

It was the one that wouldn't go away. It was that one remaining pain.

It has to go.

With this "it", they meant "him".


So the Powers That Be, has decided. He has to go. Off with his head!

Off he went.

I looked forward to being away from the office for a while. I was rescued by the welcoming idea of attending training, however the timing of the training that followed, was immaculate. I have to be the best of friends with Murphy to be able to pull off things like that.

Truly and indeed, I am. I have decided to be the preacher of Murphy, the believer of Murphy and a Murph.
By that, you know what's gonna happen. I swear to be a true Murph, and nothing Murphy ever happens to me.

Here I am, back.

Guess who's back, back again. Shine is back, tell a friend.

Against a willing mind and unwilling heart, I dragged my sorry ass back to the office knowing it is not going to be a good remaining day. It was just too difficult for me to condition my mind about coming back.

My biggest fear, having my leave cancelled, has happened again. I knew it.

Didn't I mention Murphy is the biggest fan of my life?

I have a pained look on my face as I imagine that wild rain outdoors that is beating down unto the pavements with no mercy. That crazy thought went through my head : I will go on leave anyway.

I could get away with this. No one needs to know if you don't tell...

These has been the craziest bits of rain to hit my lobby. I hated it. I hated the rain, I hated being back in this suit, I hated being back in these heels, I absolutely hate being here.

The only good thing about being back today was, I shared the couch.

The crazy, territorial me, shared the couch. It was something I crystalised about and something I truly hold very close to my heart (sanguine) I always crystalise. This time it wasn't Sade, it wasn't Planet Starbucks, it wasn't the coffee, it was just being able to see him after 6 days.

There are silver linings to the day. Sometimes it's having refills to my tomato soup, sometimes it is being able to share Samantha, Miranda, Carrie and Charlotte with fellow colleagues, sometimes it could just be my Shuffle playing Sade's Kiss Of Life. Random as it is, it could happen.

Before I turn into a Murph, I'm telling you, it could happen to you.

Monkey aside, I have been truly happy the last few days being away from the office and still had people, friends and purpose.

Thank you for everyone around me for being supportive. Thank you to those reading this (and those who are not) Thank you for being who you are with me and for letting me be who I am when I'm with you. Thank you for helping me colour this blog and my ultimately candid life.

I love you guys. (gals included!)