The calm before the storm..

There was no pause, there was no warning, there was no silence, there was no hint. It hit us like the tsunami tidal waves. Strong, persistant and inevitable.

It has to happen.

"Someone has to take the blame but it will not be me"

That's me being defensive again. I couldn't help but keep being defensive about it. I was so tight in tension I was about to snap into two. Everyone around me was a victim. My sweet China Doll volunteered to be screamed at. But I'm not the screaming type. I'm the "dounce-you-in-acidic-sarcasm-till-you-turn-into-oblivious-insignificance". Everyone around me was stuffed with my shoe in their face, or had the boot of my every joke, or the pleasure of signing every form I wrote them up on. Somehow one way or another, I wasn't very lady-like about my reaction.

I was informed that it was my prerogative. Seemingly so. I have failed.

They were merciful to me. They embraced me for my stupidity and gave me a redeeming chance.

Was I supposed to go down on my knees and be thankful to them? Them who gave me a measly amount of peanuts and I repay gratitude with these remarks?

Hyprocracy.

My reply, "Hmmmphh"

Watch me. I'll learn how to do it better. By then if I still get peanuts, you can be certain I will be up their ass so high, they can't wait to get rid of me.

Yeah, *snort* I love you too (NOT)