Too small...

This office is too small to contain all of us high-strung people. I had a day off yesterday but last night.. I couldn't sleep at all last night. I had a pounding headache. I was awake listening to Steve snore and him talking in his sleep. Every second was so difficult to pass. Of course I tried praying. It didn't work. I was talking to Him all night... most of last night.

At 5.58 am, I texted my Boss to say that I will be in at 10 am coz I couldn't sleep and was feeling like the most dreadful thing on earth.

As expected, everything blew up in my face after a day off like yesterday. If I am energetic enough to work every day of every week, I would. At least I would have an idea of everything when asked.

Besides having a pounding and permanent headache, I feel completely stupid. I want so much to re-count the day off yesterday but today kinda busted the wonderful day off yesterday.

I will be here till at least 10 pm tonight. This is the life I have chosen, I cannot blame anyone for not inviting me to movies, not inviting me to dinners and not being able to be part of something of someone else. This is me. 100% work.

Today I'm so whiny, I fell right back into the pattern of whine Shine. Tell me I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world.

I said : "I cannot take this anymore. I'm not sleeping right, I'm not eating right, I have no time for you and I'm such a whiner!!"

He replied : "Take a deep breath. Cool down. Every job is the same. Stay positive and outstanding!"

Now, tell me.. Has there ever been a boyfriend who would be so patient, uncompromisingly loving? It's all I want, a man who would pick me up and make me aware that I am outstanding.