Can You Stomach It?
No.
At this point the Chai didn't sit very well with me. And I'm sitting frowning at a foreign desk I'm working from.
My feel-good all day today flew out the window with my Chai.
In replacement, I got something for my board. It's consolation. And it's at least an alternative. How many get to say that they have something for their wall of fame?
It's not red. But it will do for now.
Okay. Let's face it. Last night didn't sit very well with me. And it was my fault. Bad judgement. Bad decisions. I repent and don't do it again.
At the end of the day, it's going to be me on Judgement Day. Me and Him. And I don't want it to have come to that.
Constantine was trying to buy his way back to heaven coz he was a suicide. But God doesn't work that way, does He? So think about it and think about what lies for you when it comes to Judgement Day.
I'm not going to push and shove as it is my decision, my call and I made a bad one. So I have to put this behind me and move on.
Qert was talking to me. And he knows how it is going on with me. And I didn't know if he could stomach my confession. But he said, "tell me" anyway. Which is what I expected him to say.
He didn't say, "Stupid girl". He didn't say, "What were you thinking, girl!"
No. He didn't.
He's too Christian for that. Instead he said something to even rub it in and made me writtle into the ground. He said, "I'll pray for you".
"You have a higher moral, that's why. You could do with a lot more of talking with Him".
Yes. I could.
"Pray for strength, pray for patience. I know you're on the right track".
He didn't believe that I could do it. But he believes that prayers are going to help me go a long way, at least a way better than me thinking I'm doing this alone.
Thank you. Thank you for telling me. Thank you for calling a spade a spade. I know how it is. I know how it seemed like and I know I will work towards this in a better way.
I sincerely do not know how to be a better person without any gratitude in my life.
Thank you - mommy, daddy, Jerri Berry and Jules. Thank you for being my strength. Thank you for being what family means to me. Thank you.
I love you.
At this point the Chai didn't sit very well with me. And I'm sitting frowning at a foreign desk I'm working from.
My feel-good all day today flew out the window with my Chai.
In replacement, I got something for my board. It's consolation. And it's at least an alternative. How many get to say that they have something for their wall of fame?
It's not red. But it will do for now.
Okay. Let's face it. Last night didn't sit very well with me. And it was my fault. Bad judgement. Bad decisions. I repent and don't do it again.
At the end of the day, it's going to be me on Judgement Day. Me and Him. And I don't want it to have come to that.
Constantine was trying to buy his way back to heaven coz he was a suicide. But God doesn't work that way, does He? So think about it and think about what lies for you when it comes to Judgement Day.
I'm not going to push and shove as it is my decision, my call and I made a bad one. So I have to put this behind me and move on.
Qert was talking to me. And he knows how it is going on with me. And I didn't know if he could stomach my confession. But he said, "tell me" anyway. Which is what I expected him to say.
He didn't say, "Stupid girl". He didn't say, "What were you thinking, girl!"
No. He didn't.
He's too Christian for that. Instead he said something to even rub it in and made me writtle into the ground. He said, "I'll pray for you".
"You have a higher moral, that's why. You could do with a lot more of talking with Him".
Yes. I could.
"Pray for strength, pray for patience. I know you're on the right track".
He didn't believe that I could do it. But he believes that prayers are going to help me go a long way, at least a way better than me thinking I'm doing this alone.
Thank you. Thank you for telling me. Thank you for calling a spade a spade. I know how it is. I know how it seemed like and I know I will work towards this in a better way.
I sincerely do not know how to be a better person without any gratitude in my life.
Thank you - mommy, daddy, Jerri Berry and Jules. Thank you for being my strength. Thank you for being what family means to me. Thank you.
I love you.
posted by Shine at 6/13/2007 07:03:00 PM
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