Leslie Cheung

In the movie last night, Andy Lau did a rendition of a Leslie Cheung song.. It was "The Wind Blows On". Year : 1983. (Okay, there's gonna be a lot of Cantonese terminologies on this posting)

When Andy Lau started to sing this song, I started to cry. Particularly the way he sang it. It was just like Leslie. You must remember, Leslie took his own life in April 2003. And with Leslie, my sissy and I grew up.

It was watching A Better Tomorrow II, when Leslie died (in character) and my sissy was crying her eyes out. It was watching Leslie's Final Encounter, the moment he "frame mic" (retire from singing)

This song particularly, is the same song everybody uses as a Leslie Montage. This very song. And I started crying.

Not because it reminds me of anyone in particular. Not because the song means something to me (actually, it does) Not because of anything, but the fact that Leslie is no longer with us.

I cried for as long as Andy sang the song. I didn't know why it was so easy for the tears to come. I didn't know why.

But as I took my breathing right wrongly for the night, I had Leslie tunes going through my head. Monica. Stand Up. Songs.. Songs that made Leslie Leslie. Songs that made this era. Songs that made my sissy and I sing together.

I was crying not because I was watching a Leslie Cheung movie. I was crying not because I was listening to a Leslie Cheung song. I was crying because Andy Lau sang that song as a tribute. And I was reminded of what's not here anymore.


As much as Anita Mui was an icon in my life, Leslie Cheung was the icon in my sissy's life. Ask her today, she'd still have her Leslie cassettes....