By asking

Means you know. Whether you want to or not.

Sometimes, it's not by choice.

I was on Skype with Qert when I said, "I have a confession"

His reply : Do I want to know this?

You have no choice, it's coming through to your phone.

Qert manage to stay indifferent for about 8 lines of the chat and then popped it on me. And I felt like a horrible person forcing this on Qert. I feel horrible already, so feeling like a horrible person was achieving something else.


Yeah, so Qert knows. And he's probably gonna still be here and around when this confession goes away.


I miss my children so much. I miss having a sense of fulfillment. I miss having a feeling of belonging.

This afternoon as I went walking, alone, I called my new best friend. She was crazy happy. She's never gonna come back here again. I had to call someone, I had to. At least if I fall, my next best friend would know to call someone. I thought against risking it and went to look for Flo. It's safer being with someone else. At least I know Flo would have dragged me by the hair if I fainted. :þ