The Cat

This is Rose' puppy's cat cushion.

Rose is Tom's sister who resides in Singapore. Rose whose husband retired her two years earlier. Rose who was a senior stewardess with SIA and married a pilot. Rose who sits at home and spends her time with her puppy and knitting, and sometimes playing beads stringing up beautiful bracelets and rings. (like the ones my sister and I have, and my office too) Rose who could walk an entire day in Singapore without feeling tired. Rose who could just window shop and has very little temptation. Rose who volunteer help at the hospital twice a week. Rose who has had enough modelling days and travelling sky-high. Rose whose husband shot a clip of her, on her very last flight when he retired her. Rose who asked her husband, HS, "Chicken or beef, honey? Today, I think you'd like the chicken" And the people around HS was horrified she spoke that way to him. LOL.

Rose who gets online and chat with me non-stop and then goes, "Oh, Boss is home! I have to catch you again" Rose and HS who just came back from a week in Osaka. Rose who takes beautiful pictures. Rose who makes you roll on floor literally when going karaoke with her. Rose who makes you feel like that's the woman you want to be. Rose who is closer to 6 feet tall. Rose whose legs goes on forever. Rose whose sense of humour is undiminishing.

This morning, as I came to work and passing by window displays. And I remember Rose. I remember telling Rose that window shopping opens windows of opportunities. And Rose said, never been her thang. Don't need it. Don't want it.

And I remember going into this shop with Chairwoman. It cannot be that everything looks beautiful from here, we have to go in there and check it out. That eliminates all other wants.

And we did. We went in there. Tried on close to 20 pieces of clothing, and walked out empty handed. And satisfied.

Eliminating that, was satisfying curiosity.

And today, I walked past that same window and I don't have that curiousity. I don't feel like anything at all. Well, I had a delivered Chai. I went in search of Chairwoman and didn't find. I didn't blog yesterday, also didn't feel like.

Every day now for me is a "don't feel like".