Please Be..

"Thank God it didn't happen on your shift!" was probably the greatest thing said today between me and Chairwoman.

What did happen on my shift was, I'm a stellar sale. I sold 2 packages over a period of 4 hours. I found it rather difficult not to pat myself on the back... Like said, my stint of over uh.. 3 or 4 years, I have never had any production sitting at a booth. Yesterday, I did a whooping show-me-the-money sale.

That's setting the benchmark and making it good.

I was singing my own praises for half an hour before I got sick with myself. I left to go home at 7 ish and glad to have caught dinner with my mom.

I crawled into bed at 10, despite Lord of War being on Star Movies. I've been rather depressed of late. My mom doesn't get it. I didn't either. It's only a matter of time. A lot of sleep for the time being, I guess...

I am and have been focusing on y, since x bothers me. And y I have been focusing on since Saturday. Saturday in the office. Saturday on Adorn. Saturday evening. Saturday night.

And I thought it could only get better.

And as usual, I am wrong. It doesn't only just gets better. It gets even better.

This afternoon when Chairwoman was in between petty cash claims and me negotiating with Plat Plus, she said, "I got something interesting to show you."

And that was the biggest mistake I could have done today.

The good (or bad) thing is, I don't have y to focus on right about when I read about the interesting news. And I didn't choose my reaction well enough. Time to up the dosage of Happy Pills.

I thought I have made a conscious decision. I thought I have had my last thoughts, my last dwelling hope this morning on the way to work. I held on to my slim Pod and tried to focus.

Chairwoman held me as I tried to laugh it off. And she said we should do y.

Thank you for being there. Thank you for providing y.

Thank God it didn't happen on your shift! ;-)