Alanis Morissette

Alanis Morissette songs are bad albums to listen to for driving at night. Especially if you're not the one driving.

Under Rug Swept for me, was an album that showed me she mellowed. She was not so spitting wrath anymore. And I like this album least. But since I have not heard this album in a long time, I played it and I sang to it. The words of any Alanis Morissette song is difficult to forget. Even if I didn't like it, there is always a way for me to relate.

It was dark. And I realise that being my father's daughter, I cannot drive at night. I cannot see at night. It freaked me out too much.

But what also freaked me out was, Alanis Morissette is putting Steve to sleep.

How could someone so angry and noisy put anyone to sleep? Or maybe it's just my singing.

Knowing my ah beng, I had to switch to something he could keep awake to. And I have already thrown away most of his ah beng songs. And that means I have to bring it out again : God Is A Girl.

The good thing is, I like the song too. All the while I had Flo with me on text. She wanted me to join the Red Feat this year. And I said I will.

We arrived destination under the bridge half before midnight. And I was hungry again. I finally took Jin-I-wannabe-dorg-next-life's Endertainment with me. I knew the book and I, would be the only thing interesting to each other. I stayed up reading.

And didn't wake up till 11 the next day. The book was too promising. And nothing was going to get in my way. I went to see the dentist. Something I've put off for for a very long time. But it had to be done. And I did. I had two separate appointments over two days. And Father didn't let me off light. He was brilliant and kept me fed most of Friday. I stayed in the kitchen with my book on one hand, and my spoon on the other.

There were two new children in the house. I've never seen them before. And only two kids zipping around the house. Crystal the bully and Yoda the constipated. None of the kids came near me. I was too occupied with my book. And Father wasn't too happy with me reading at the table. But happy that I ate almost everything.

I cannot go back for too long. I would be too fat to leave home after a week. As it is, I can only fit in one pair of pants now. Everything I used to have doesn't fit me anymore.

I had no Pod. I only have Ender. Finisher.

We left on Saturday evening at about half past 4. And that started me thinking. Thinking of Alice.

When we got home, the first thing I did was hug my mom. And then went to my bed. Curled up and waited for my sissy to arrive.

Her text to me : When you coming back la. I miss seeing my sissy la (",)

She arrived at her usual 10++ time on Saturday nights. And we sat around a bit before heading out to the usual Steven's Corner. With my mom.

We got home and started watching Cars. This part, he disappeared. And it was about 3 am. My sissy didn't leave till past 4.


It was the weekend. And I feel like I feel every weekend. Helpless. And entirely beyond me.