The mistakes of keeping a blog...

For people like Fox Mulder and myself, we are cursed with good memory. Mostly of things we don't want to remember. And keeping a blog, is like keeping all the bad memories in writing.

A few days ago, I had a dream of someone I really like... It was a happy ending. Dreams like that for me are rare.. It's usually nightmares. But that one, I treasured. It's only a dream. And to this person, I'm only a puppy.

Without JL in the office, I played my INXS album loudly and then switched to John Mayer's Trio album Live In Concert. That was a tough one. Try listening to John Mayer, reading the September entry on my blog (where I was haunted of the picture and turned into a person I do not know) and not to crystalise. Wait, I almost succeeded, except, I crystalised..

Then I did another painful thing, I opened my gmail and read the old emails from 2004. Big mistake. It was an overdose. It made me smile and it made me crystalise. I don't know why it feels so wonderful to read these old emails. It may be because I have not seen him the entire month of March....